A rainbow of words....

Back back back.

2009-07-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

Maybe I shld start posting here again.
Shld I , shld I ?
Hahaha :D

See my mood lah , dno why Im so random today anyway. (:

A mistake ,,,

2008-12-26T22:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO everybody.
Haha i shall blog a random post , cos I feel sorry that I left this blog dead for such a long timeeee.
Okay so what did I do in December?
Hmmm .. lots of things I guess.

Sent Vanessa off to Australia ( Hurry come back la woman!) ,
Christmas Carnival which was awesomeeeely awesomeeee :D
Worship team retreat!
Bintan with Charissa and the rest
Busy shopping and wrapping presents
Christmas!! + eating lots of ham and junk food
Blood Brothers Christmas Drama

and going out shopping and many other stuffs!
I think December has been generally great , learnt lots of stuff along the way too!
Trusting in God is the most important thing! And Im learning how to put my full trust in God. He has a plannn and im gladdddd (:

Many things to look forward to also!
Tmrs Worship Team Gathering after service , and theres SMASH and Cell Retreat next week! =DDDDD Yayyyyyy.

I shall blog again when I feel like it. In the meantime , happpppy holidays to those who have holidays , and God bless all of youuuuuuu! =D

thankyouuuuu:D

Im a bad friend.

2008-11-22T21:50:00.001+08:00

Heyyyyy!
Alot of stuff have happened since Olevels were over.
So I guess this blog will be dead for a while.
I dont know how long , but I just dont have the mood to post anymore.
Sorry to everyone , but I doubt anyone reads this blog anyway.
Well ,
Bye , for now. (:

THANK GOD.

2008-11-11T18:40:00.002+08:00

Helllllo worldddddd
Olevels are officially and finally OVER! (:
time to enjoy and shop and do other stuff! =DDD

Today I went to watch HSM3 with Vanessa aft Science MCQ!
MRT-ed to Marina Square , then walked around and ate lunch since the cinema wasnt open yet.
Aft lunch , we bought tickets , then went inside , and guess what man ?
We nearly had the whole cinema to ourselves!
Totally nobody until the show started , and there was a grand total of 6 people. Wonderful , I like empty cinemas. (:
HSM3 was great , literally a musical la. Every 15 minutes , they'll sing a song. Haha , but I enjoyed it , so yay! (:
Aft that we went to shopshop and walk around Suntec City. Saw clothes , but was lazy to buy. MRT-ed to plaza sing , ended up buying ----- , present for dearest buddy.
I need to go shop for christmas presents la , have to brainstorm what to buy. Woo.
And I really feel like doing alot of things , rollerblading , shopping , stoning , slacking etc.

Thank you God for everything. I knew You would carry me through my struggles , and now everything's fine. Im really really glad ,
New thing I learnt yesterday , Combat your troubles with prayer (:

I love you,

2008-11-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyya! =D
Olevels ending on tuesday! Gna watch HSM3 with Vanessa : D
I superly cant wait for Olevels to officially end la , even though I started to play alr. (:
Hees.
But I'll miss studying with everybody else in church. Made so many new friends and got to know so many people better , Im happppppppy. And I found a new hideout , which is the rooftop. I didnt realise before that the BBTC rooftop was so beautiful , but now I do! Yayyyyy. I actually enjoyed this Olevel period , the papers weren't all that hard as I expected it to be , now time for the results!
But before that , time to play and shop and enjoy myself first. (:

God , I know you'll always be with me , and in times of trouble , You'll carry me through. Please help me to trust in You , for You have a plan for me. Even though things seem to have changed , I know everything will be alright soon , because You are in charge.

Now , all I need to do is stop worrying about so much stuff , I'll just let go and let God. its easy to say , but hard to actually get down to it. Why are things changing? I have a bad feeling about this. I want everything to return to what it was before this. :/

I love you so ,

2008-10-28T20:16:00.003+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODYYY! (:

Its 15 more days to the end of Olevels! (:
Shall update on my life aft 11thNovember , but right now ,
I shall help Jillyn advertise! =D

Go visit her blogshop at
www.juicyinabox.blogspot.com

She sells super nice stuff , not something you can find in all blogshops.
So hurry hurry , go visit! =D

Anyway , all the best to everybody taking O and A levels! (:
Press on , awhile more to go only! =D

Tomorrow's the big day,

2008-10-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hello! =D
Im not angry anymore.
I shall forgive and forget , no grudges beared(?)

Anyway , to all taking Olevels tomorrow,
ALL THE BEST~~!!!!!!

Do your best , and God will do the rest! =D
You will be in my prayers!

++ , 21 days to the end of Olevels. Yippeeee =D

Damn you you and you

2008-10-16T19:51:00.002+08:00

I forgot I had a blog. Oops.
Anyway , Olevels on Monday and I really shouldnt be here.
At least not to post unhappy stuff.

But someone has just made me angry. Two persons in fact.
Firstly , Hello . I cant stand your behaviour. Wheres your sense of responsibility? You wna keep pets , you jolly well take care of them. I foresaw this coming. You dump eveyrthing to Auntie , you don't give a damn about your so called ' pets ' . Yea right , the promises of caring for them , they're just a load of rubbish. When they gave birth , all you could do was admire the baby. I bet that was the reason why you bought them in the first place. Whats your problem ? Pets arent toys , you dont throw them away once you finishp laying with them. And when I talk to you about it , all you can do is bring up some other flaw that I have. Like wth , I seriously dont know where your conscience has gone. I hope you read this , and wake up from your dreams. You promised to care for them after your PSLE , keep that promise.

Secondly , you. I know you're trying to communicate with me. But this is obviously the wrong way. Whats with insulting me and putting me down all the time? You dont know , but it has an impact okay. A negative one. Saying I dont contribute to the family , I dont care about my siblings , blahblah. Just because I dont know where they are at the point of time , doesn't mean I dont care about them alright. If I were a video camera . I would gladly keep track of their every move. But sadly , I am not , so stop treating me and expecting me to be like one , thank you very much. Trying to force me to do what hes supposed to do isn't going to work either. Hello , so what if hes a boy ? Boy means no need to do housework , no need to be responsible for anything isit? I know you favour him , but what sia , Im your daughter too , in case you forgot. So stop covering up for him , stop spoiling him. And please consider my feelings before you talk/shout/scold me , thanks alot.

Gosh. You guys are forever like that.
I am so sorry for ranting , I just had to , somewhere. ):
Anyway , practicals sucked today too.
Today is just NOT a good day.

So full of love , so much to give

2008-09-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

Hello hello hello everybody!
I dont know why Im blogging so soon.
But I know I must say this!

I . LOVE . EACH . AND . EVERY . ONE . OF . MY . FRIENDS .
Yes yes yes yes! I love all of you! And that includes you reading this now!
I just feel so loved , so I shall spread the love!
Thank you everybody for being here for me , and encouraging me in one way or another.
I really really really appreciate it , and I cant thank you guys enough.
And the bestest best friend I could ever ask for ,
Thank you Jesus , for putting so many special people into my life. <33333333333333333333

Beautiful memories last a lifetime,

2008-09-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

I didnt imagine myself saying this , but
I'll definitely miss SAC.
Both primary and secondary school , I have been sheltered for 10 years. And today , beautiful memories kept flooding back , and it made me realise just how much I've grown and matured in different ways these 10 years. It surely doesnt feel like 10 years , time passes way too fast. Very soon , we'll all graduate and go to different schools and might never see each other again. So yes , dearest SAC , you'll be missed (:
Anyways , everybody was really really pretty today! =D Everything was great , just for the fact that the sun was burning hot and made most people tired and sleepy , including me. (:
Took many many photos , I shall wait for everybody to send them to me.
Went to church after that , thank you Fatifhul-nest for the cakee , its really really yummy and filling. =D Stayed back after cell to studyyyy with Anna! Quite productive I must say , I completed a math paper. YAY. And thank you Abigail Darling for your cute turtle ( Xiao Ding right? (: ) and letter. I loveeee youuu as much as you loveee me! =D
Im really really tired now , And I hope my computer gets fixed soon. (:

16 years ,

2008-09-17T18:33:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyo!
I want to thank everybodyyyy who wished me happy birthday in some way or another today! (:
Yayyyy , im really veryvery happy.

Yesterday and today we had Youth Mission in school , which replaced our normal lessons. All in all , it was quite interesting , plus point was that the people who were conducting the mission were very random and entertaining in a way. (: And im glad I actually learnt alot from it , and its a good thing I didnt pon , even though I was planning to. During the friend session thingy today , I felt really really touched , and I got to admit , I miss last time lots. Thanks to the ppl who wrote me notes , I appreciate it alot.

Ohhh oh anyway , after school , Alina , Angelyn , Constance , Dewaine , Sarah and Vanessa surprised me with a cake! Thank youuuu so so much , I was sort of at a loss for words. But nevertheless , THANK YOUUU <33333
I feel so lovedddd , theres so many people around me who care for meee! =D
Even those who I didnt expect to remember my birthday came up to me to wish me happy birthday , and I am shocked ( Thank you Samantha Peckkkk! :DDDD)
Yayyy , I wna thank God for this super splendid superb special day , I superly enjoyed today.
(((((((((((:

This crush ain't going away ,

2008-09-14T21:04:00.003+08:00

I finally can get into blogger!
I dont think my dad is ga repair my computer anytime soon , but good news is I managed to backup everything from my computer! Which means I have all my precious files that I previously thought I lost. YAY! (:

I am so fortunate. (:
Because I have many people around me that care for me!

Thanks Eunice Laogong for always being there and listening to my nonsense , even though I may be highly irritating , you're always so patient and understanding and willing to listen. I love you loads , laogongggg (:
Thanks Anna , for listening to me tooo! And giving me random hugs and saying Im small. HAHA.Dont worry kay , you are one of my bestest friends too! (:
Thanks Abigail Darling , for always encouraging me. Im super touched by what you told me , and remember I'll always be here for you too when you need me! Study hard k , next year's your olevels alr =P Super honoured to be your darling (: Lovelove youuu!

Haha , theres many more people that I wna thank , but if I name everybody , I wont be finished even if I blog through the night. When I have the time , I'll do one proper post thanking everybody okay? In the meantime , you know you are loved by me , regardless of who you are or how close you are to me. Because I appreciate everyone of you very very much! Lovelovelove! =D

Okay , tmr's last prelim paper , shall go read up abit more.
BYEBYE! (:

It will never fade,

2008-09-05T18:38:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOH XIAO SI CRABBBBY! =D
You're 16th now , olderrr than meeee =D I LOVE YOU!

The holidays are ending in 2 days. ):
Time really really passes fast when you're having fun and enjoying yourself.
This whole week was productive I guess. More productive than normal days.
Had study camp in church almost everyday. Study camp because we booked the room and studied from morning till evening. And many people were studying , so it was like a tuition / community centre! HAHA.
I likeeeeee studying in church. If I cant solve a question , then somebody else could surely solve it. Then I would not be stressing over how to do the questions because there are people teaching me! Which is a good thing (((((:

Okay , school is starting , which means PRELIMSSSSSS , until 15th september. ):
I need to study , study and study more.
Church tmr! (:

My update is really boring as you can see.
Im gna go off now.
Byeeeeeeeee everybodyyyy! =D

Near . far , wherever

2008-08-31T22:47:00.001+08:00

Desiree wants to watch Titanic! :D

"You have a gift , Jack, You see people."
"I see you."
<333333333333

And I miss you so ,

2008-08-24T12:42:00.003+08:00

Desiree's computer has officially died on the 23rd August 2008.
I am really really sad , this computer has been a great companion for the past 2+ years.
Now I feel kind of empty , but I guess that's a sign to actually start studying and stop slacking around.

So , since Im using my brother's computer now , and he's gna come back any minute , I shall log off before he screams at me.
Bye everybody , I dont think I'll post here until my dad finds a way to revive my computer , if he has the intention to do it in the first place. (:

I surrender all to You,

2008-08-17T20:21:00.002+08:00

I studied for 3hours nonstop today , which can be counted as an achievement. Yayyy (:

Tomorrow's Monday , which means school again. And one week to prelims. =S

Yesterday was Sword Exchange , and we didnt win , but neverminddd! Its the effort that counts. (:

I feel weird. I dont want the past to resurface again , but it feels like it now. Its a terrible feeling , and I dont knowwwww what to do. All I know is that I dont want history to repeat itself again. God ,I surrender everything to You. Please help me. ):

My whole family is watching Olympics now , so I shall go watch too. Heehee , Bye! (:

Even in darkest moments , You're here with me

2008-08-15T16:48:00.002+08:00

ITS FRIDAY! (:
Finally , an end to this super stressful and emofied week.
I hope everything gets better sooon!

So today was English Orals , and I think I screwed it up , because I kept pausing in between , and I think I went out of topic somewhere too. Topic was about natural beauty (?!?!?!) if I'm not wrong. I got tongue-tied and said irrelevant stuff quite a lot of times. Dont know what marks Im gna get , but what Im sure of is I didnt do my very best. Which Im quite upset over , but I shant whine , because its over! =D

Ohhh yaaa , Im retaking Chinese! After much thought and consideration. Thanks everybody who encouraged me and said they would help me. Im greatly greatly touched and I love alll of youuuu <3333
This weekends shall be chionging time , because I havent really been studying much.

YAY , Bye. (:

I offer this heart unto You,

2008-08-12T21:18:00.002+08:00

C5 for Chinese.
C for Chinese. Matches doesnt it?
Yea , Haaahaa Im trying to be lame.

So today was spent crying and moping around and feeling really useless , stupid , dumb etc. When Mdm Chan showed me the results paper , I literally heard everything around me CRASH. like the 'Piang!' sound. Dont ask me why , but I just heard it. The tears came next , and couldn't stop after that. My eyes kept watering like some tap. And when Mdm Xie came to talk to me , I felt even worse and started crying all over again.
Yea , you must be thinking why Desiree crys over almost everything. The answer , I dont know as well. I probably have very active tear glands , thats why I cry so easily.

So now I dont know whether to retake the Chinese exam or not. Half of me wants to , but the other half doesn't. I shall most probably retake , because I see the pros as much more reasonable and beneficial than the cons. And I will follow Susa's advice and stop moping around and feeling sorry for myself , because that wont help matters at all. Time to concentrate and buck up and do well for other subjects.

I feel mad now. Its funny how everyone is more eager to help me than I am to help myself. I need to wake up , like NOWWWW.
God , help me finish this race even though I've fallen so many times.

Change my heart , renew me

2008-08-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

YO everybody!
The past few days were quite busy! But it was fun nonetheless(?) (:

On thursday there was Radical Prac. Met Eunice and walked around Bedok Inter , and it started to rain VERY heavily. We got super wet by the time we reached church la! So practice started , and by the time we got to the second segment , we went superly HIGH. Practice ended quite late though , but yay for Samchin , who fetched Eunice , Olivia , Samgoh and me home. And I found out Samgoh lives in the blocks behind my house! Hahaha (:

Friday was Sports Day at the TP Stadium! And I have to say , it was fun , even though I skipped Sports Day for three consecutive years , it wasnt that bad afterall. And I ran for the first time in a longggg longggg time. Ran for 8x50 Relay Race , and yea , we didnt get last even though the baton was dropped. (: And it was kinda fun to run! So yea , after sports day , walked home with Angelyn , Alina , Dewaine , Constance and Sarah.
Napped awhile then went to church for Radical (: Prac was fun and really really high. Dinner was great too , and super filling. =D
Then it was the real real thing! This year's Radical was really really radical la , God's presence was there , and the feeling was just unexplainable. Segment 2 was the super super super high (x100) part , we went siao and started jumping around , dancing , singing , everything. It felt super to worship God freely , and I give thanks for that. Even after Radical was over , we were still going high while packing up. =DDDDDDD and I thank God that I could be part of this year's awesome Radical'08. (:

Okay , Saturday was Philemon's 21st birthday party and Sword Xchange!
Happy early birthday to Philemon (:
We got into the semi- finals of Sword Xchange , yay (:
I shall not study and memorise verses so last minute anymore , must study early and in advance. (:
Had fun watching the other cellgroups also. I think I have abs from laughing too much (:
I watched the NDP on TV , and I couldnt see the fireworks from my house anymore. Joshua came with his electric guitar , which I tried to play but failed horribly. =D

Okay I think this is quite a longgg post , so I shall stop here.
Last note ,

Eunice Bffl , don't be sad okay. Even though I dont know whats going on , I am here for you ALL the time. 24/7 (:
And it really hurts me to see you sad. So dont be sadddd! God will make a way , no matter how terrible you feel. And remember , if things aren't okay , then its not the end yet. Press on kk, I'll be with you every step of the wayyy! Lovessssss <3

I lay everything at Your feet Lord ,

2008-08-05T18:48:00.003+08:00

'Don't harden your hearts in rebellion when He points out areas in your lives which need to be worked out.'

Realisation ( is there such a word? ) can be very wonderful , in my current situation.
Thank you Lord for making me realise what I'm going through all this for.
Its all for You.
And for You , I know everything will turn out fine in the end.
Because You want the best for me. (:

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from nothing to earth into Eternity

Dancing generation ,

2008-08-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLLLLOOOOOO! (:
I am currently very high.
Yayyyyyy (:

Just came back from Radical08 practice , and I really cannot wait for Radical! FIVE MORE DAYS! Everybody come come comeee for Radical , and I guarantee 100% that you will not regret it! Its gonna be such a great time of worshipping God! And I know that this Radical is gna be different from all other Radicals (((:

And and andddd ,
Dewaine and Constance came to church yesterday! =D
Yayyyyyy!
That's one thing to be thankful for! =D

And I have many many other things to thank God for as well! =D
I had many many problems and stuff on my mind this week , but yesterday I prayed , and all my troubles seem to have faded away. This is how great God is! =D
And He taught me not to worry , but to trust in Him. I know He'll surely bring me through , and yay! =D
I wont worry about everything and anything from now on! I'll have faith and trusttttt in God (:
Im really really very high now , and so I shall go do my homework before my motivation fades away.

smile because GOD LOVES YOU! (:

You rose again on high!

2008-07-29T20:17:00.002+08:00

These few days my eyes becameeeeeee smallll and I cant seem to stay awake during classes. D=
Yesterday I slept in almost every class , and today also. I feel like my eyes have shrank , and its a very weird feeling. ):

Anyway! Okay Im just really high now.
Assembly was about these two guys who went on mission trips. To spread the good news that God loves everybody! It was a surprise to me , I dont know why , but yea , in a good way though!
One of the guys said something like ' God is always waiting to love you '
And that got me thinking alot about some stuff.
Thank you God for loving me even though I have forgotten to love you time and again. And God's love is everlasting! =DDDD Yayyyy.

Kk , I shall go off now (:
GOD LOVES YOU! =D

Unveil my eyes,

2008-07-27T19:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO! (:
Yay , I feel so blessed!
Today turned out super (:
And even though I was feeling quite upset this whole week , the weekends made up for it all. =D

Firstly , went for Swirl of Sensations on friday with Dewaine and Constance. And I got lost halfway because of the crowd , but in the end everything was fine , and the concert was great! The dancers and PB-ers were aweeesomeee , especially 4/7 Indian Dancers! (: Yayyyy , and I enjoyed myself alottttt.

There was HOP on saturday , and its quite fun. Even though I went for the first time , and I thought it would be weirddd , it wasnt weird at all (: Thank God. =DDD
And I went for COP todayyy! (: And I am really really touched by the children there. They're so different , compared to teenagers and adults , and the whole atmosphere was super heartwarming. Had radical practice today , I love practices! And Radical is in 2 weeks! =D Superly cannot wait. =D

I really thank God for everything He has provided me with , even the bad stuff. In every situation , I always have something to thank God for , be it His grace , His love or a lesson that He wants to teach me, and Im really thankful for that. (:
I want to learn to forgive , and not bear grudges against those who have hurt me. And I trust that God will bring me throughhhhh! =D
Yayy , I feel really great now , thank You God (:

Thanks . =/

2008-07-23T16:58:00.003+08:00

Dont read if you think you'll feel offended. Please and thank you.
You know , it doesnt matter whether you read this or not , but preferably not , because after that , you would be doubting your own identity and character. Not like it was good in the first place anyway.

Maybe you have no life , that's why you make us play stupid games like 'Survivor'. If you do have the guts , go and join the TV show , then maybe I needn't see you every other day anymore. Anyway , you hate me just as much as I hate you , so it would benefit us both. Before this week , I was still thinking whether I should stop being such a terrible student ( Yes , I know I've been underperforming. ) , but after today , it just proves to me that you're not worthy of my respect. Besides your very obvious biasness towards some people , you also have very low self- esteem. That's why you have to pick on people and insult them just so you feel better. I really dont mind , because I know I'm more than that. And I dont have to care evry much because unlike you , I have friends who are there for me. I bet you were jealous when you said those stuff about me and my friends , because at least I have friends who stand up for me , while you probably have NONE at all. Perhaps you might , if you change that stinking attitude of yours.

In the past , I got really affected when you scolded and insulted me with whatever you could come up with , thinking it would cause me to wake up. Im sorry , I wont be affected anymore , because I know whos the real loser here. Stop picking on people just because you feel like it , when they have NOT done anything wrong. Trust me , it wont help one bit. I dont hate people unnecessarily , but I'm pretty sure you're the first person that I hate to this extent. You say I make empty promises? Well , maybe I have. But at least Im trying to work hard and improve , its just that you dont see it. And when you dont see my effort , who are you to judge me? Your job is to teach us , not make us feel like idiots. If I were such a genius , I wouldnt have to be in your class anymore. Instead , I would be a teacher myself , but I'll make sure that I wont have a bad attitude like you.

Thanks for ruining my interest in the subject I used to love. Now , all interest is gone , and so has every inch of respect I had for you. Thank you very very much.

Trying hard ,

2008-07-21T20:08:00.003+08:00

Bad start to the week. D=
And I dont think I have felt worse than this ever.(x100000)
Its really hard to love and respect those who are unreasonable and think that what they're doing is so great.
I bet you have fun torturing us and forcing us to do stuff that is totally irrevelant to the issue.
I have lots to say now , but strangely , I cant think of how to phrase the words properly.
All I can say is , thank YOU for destroying whatever little interest I have left for this subject.

From the first time ,

2008-07-20T10:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
I shall post a short post before I leave for church.
You know , I realise as prelims and Olevels are coming , the more Im starting to feel more slacky , which is definitely not a good thing. Somemore school is so stressful now , and everyday the teachers stuff us with mountain-piles of homework. ):
I wishhhhhh Olevels would faster come and go.
Tomorrow's monday , and I havent even started on any of my homework yet. Rahhhhhh.

Okay , shall not whine anymore , =D
Oh ya , Eunice! =D
Dont be sad anymore kk. Im always always always here for you! =D
What are best friends for right? (:

Yay , okay , shall TRY to do some homework now. BYE! (:

Troubles fade away.

2008-07-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

DESIREE IS A HAPPY HAPPY PERSON.
Vanessa , see? You must keep to what you say , and make me laugh everyday okay?
And hey , it rhymes. =D

As long as I trust in Jesus , all my problems fade away! Just 24 hours ago , I was feeling like it was the end of the world. 24 hours later , Desiree is sitting here smiling and she feels like jumping around and proclaiming the love of God to the whole wide worlddddd! Thank you God for making me smileeeee =D

Tomorrow is Olevel Chinese Listening! =D
Im not panicking , and I hope its a good thing. Yayyyieeee =D
All the best to everyone taking the Listening exam tomorrowwwww! (:

And yessss , I believe greater things have yet to come and greater things have yet to be done! =DD
Something big is gna happen , and I cannot wait! =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Okay last note ,
EUNICE! =D
Dont be sad already okay?
Remember , you always have me and God! =D
And Im here for you 24/7 , even in the middle of the night. Sms or call , and I will surely pick up (:
I loveeeee youuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3

Our God is an awesome God.

2008-07-11T23:00:00.003+08:00

God is AWESOME. (:

Thank you Lord for being my Saviour , Healer , Provider , Best friend , and everything that you have helped me with.

I know you are always there for me , even if I stray away. You'll always wait for me with open arms. I just cannot express how much I am sorry , and how I'll try my utmost best to be salt and light for You. I dont want you to be disappointed with me , because I know that You have never disappointed me.

Thank you for yesterday night and today , which have made me learn alot of stuff. Help me to hear what You have to say to me , and help me to obey You , because You know what is good for me and You have a plan for me.

I love you God , simply for being an awesome God. (:

Still I will say.

2008-07-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOO (:

Blessings campaign started on monday , and I managed to bless people! (:

I thought everyone would reject me and find me weird , but it was the opposite! (:

They were quite enthusiastic about it , and it made me really really really happy.

Its an honour to be a blessing to others!

And God is sososo awesomeeeeeee I cant even express how much I love Him! <3333

Today I got punched 'accidentally' by this middle-aged man. He swung his hand and it just nice hit my stomach. And it was hurting like mad I wanted to cryyyy. ):

But I should not bear grudges , so I will forgive him , whoever he is. =D

Yayyyy , today I am bursting with happiness for some reason.

I loveeeeeeeee the people around meeee alotalotalot! (((:

I believe Youre my healer.

2008-07-06T17:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's W and I was great. God showed me lots of things , the good and the bad , I thank Him for all of it. (:
I feel really blessed now. Im so fortunate but all I do is complain about everything. Frm now on I shall try to stop complaining , and be more appreciative.
I wna set up SHOP in my school! And Im praying for a response. I really hope there will be a revival in my school.
I want to bless the people around me! And it shall start this week. Yay yay yay! (:
Feel very happy now. =D
Okay okay , shall go off and do something productive.
BYE! (:

When you smiled (:

2008-07-04T23:51:00.002+08:00

I am drowned in piles of homework. ):

And I really feel very sad now , for some reason.

Okay la , actually not very sad , I feel sad , happy , joyful , thrilled , cheerful etc.

Haha , Im trying to prove my point that I am more happy than sad. Okay , even I dont know what Im talking about. Just know that Desiree is happy now (:

We changed places today! And even though Teri is not sitting next to me anymore , Constance is sitting in front of me , so its not that bad. (:

Integration is flooding my mind now. Its fun but its troublesome to do at the same time.

Oh ya , I survived three periods (1.5hours) of Geography today! (: Even though I was yawning every few minutes , it wasn't that bad. So yay ! =D

Had W and I with Eunice before Worship practice today , and it really helped me alot. =D

GOD LOVES ME! (: And I love Him too! Thanks Eunice for preparing W and I specially for both of us! =D

I cannot wait for tomorrow! Church and 24/7 Overnight prayer! (:

Yay yay yay. (:

Okay , my eyes are closing so I shall go sleep now.

Goodnight everyone , ^^

One , Two , Three. (:

2008-07-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

Today was Chinese Orals. And I was freaking out the entire day. Right from the night before to the moment I was in front of the examiners. Okay la , they seemed nice and smiley and friendly , but that only made me more nervous!

I couldn't read the passage properly because I couldnt breathe properly for some reason. D:

Also , I went out of point for the conversation that the teacher had to prompt me so many times. D:

But its over , and I thank God it was actually quite easy , and that it was manageable. Not superly superly hard like I thought it would be. Anyway its over , so I shall not brood over it anymore. :D All the best to those who have not taken their Chinese Orals yet. (:

We are changing seats in class and I think I'm not sitting next to Teri anymore. Whyyyyyy. ):

I wish we didnt have to change places. But I know Mdm Chan will not grant my wish , because according to her , our class's attitude sucks. ):

Okayyyy , I just remembered I have tons of homework , so I shall fly off to do it now.

Bye. (:

Unending love.

2008-06-29T19:15:00.004+08:00

Today , I got pricked by a cactus. T_T
I feel very clumsy. Okay , maybe I am very clumsy.

This post is so redundant. Haaha.

Okay , tomorrow is monday , and I have to stay back 4 times a week.

Greatttttttttttt.

Olevels , faster be over! ):

Its hard to let you go.

2008-06-27T20:27:00.003+08:00

Yay , Im blogging again . =D
Its friday! And Im happy. (:
Weekends are here! But I have a super super huge pile of homework and revision to do. =/

Anyway , yesterday was Emaths tuition. There was this super freaky thing that happened to me and Janice when we went down to buy snacks. Cos theres this vending machine downstairs my house , and next to the vending machine is the carpark. We were deciding what to buy , then suddenly we heard this super creepy sound that sounded like a baby crying. Like really really alike you know the sound! So we went to see , and it turned out to be these two cats meowing at each other. But IT WAS STILL CREEPY! =S
After that Janice kept scaring me . ><

Haha , so yeah , thats ONE interesting thing that happened this week.
Oh , I just remembered , the school made us write our own testimonials. And I have absolutely nothing to write about myself. I mean , who writes testimonials for themselves?! Im probably going to ask mummy to do it for me. =P

Okay , shall stop wasting time and start on the big pile of homework. =(
Bye! =D

I cant stop loving You.

2008-06-22T20:24:00.002+08:00

Yo! I havent posted in a longgg time. Actually not really long la , 1 week . haha.
I planned to study this week , but I didnt really do anything productive in the end. ))):
And school is starting tomorrow which means chionging for O levels because I havent revised anything for the whole June holidays. ):
I really really really hope I can concentrate and focus and stop playing so much cos the nearer it is to O levels , the more I feel like slacking , which is nottt a good thing at all. Haha.

This week God taught me to serve Him with all my heart and soul and strength. And I really thank Him for all the lessons that He has taught me , and everything that He made me go through , whether good or bad , to help me learn from my mistakes. I love having such a great God who is amazing in every way. (:

And I have a good feeling about this term , so I shall trust in God and work hard. =D
Yayyy! (:

The gift of Love.

2008-06-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

At the Foot of the Cross

At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received
And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death you bore for me
And You've won my heart
And You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

I lay every burden down
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross
At the foot of the cross
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Thank you Lord , for showing me Your way and teaching me how to love everyone around me , even those who are hard to love. Thank you. <3

Memories , most treasured.

2008-06-10T20:49:00.002+08:00

These few days have been slow-passing( is there such a word?)
I don't know why , but everything just seemed to pass by so slowly. Especially the time. 1 minute felt like many many hours. And it was really boring with nothing much to do.
I feel regretful now , but like Eunice said , God has a plan for everything! =D

And I realised God has given me such wonderful friends. I was reading through past conversations with friends. And I miss the past. Alot. And I spent alot of time pondering on the memories. I cant thank God enough for giving me a brain that can remember stuff. Especially memories. They are the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced , and I really thank God alot. (:

Okay I am being sentimental(?) now , dont know why too. Anyway , theres 2 weeks of holidays left! Shall enjoy my remaining time before intensive mugging when school starts again. (:

Say the word , and i will sing for you.

2008-06-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

HELLO! (:

I didn't blog for a few days. Heehee.

Now I am here , but I dont know what to write about. Constance told me to blog about my new family. So I shall.

Our family name very unique. it is called CL³. Cool or not?! Sounds like the chlorine element right? Just that its much cooler. =D

Yansheng is the Big bro , Constance is the Lil bro , and Dewaine is the Lil Sis. =D

And I love my family alotalotalotzxzxzxz. =D

Alright , tmr is Cell outing! at Sentosa. I hope it'll be fun , and the weather will be good! =D

I feel like goinggggggggg shopppinggggggggg.

And I have to wake up at 8am tmr. =S

I hope I can wake up early!

I am craving WHITE CHOCOLATE now , thanks to Constance's blog!

Okay , I am being random.

Anyway , shall go off now because I have run out of things to say.

Lastly ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE! I LOVE YOU VERYVERYVERYVERY(xinfinity) MUCHHHHHH! <333333333333

A love so strong , all for you.

2008-06-02T22:53:00.002+08:00

Credits on the picture itself.
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I.AM.CRAVING.FOR.FOOOOOD.
Doesnt the picture above make your mouth water?
Too bad Singapore doesnt have this outlet. ):
If not it'll become my frequent hangout.
The pancakes look superrrrr delicious lah.
Haha okay , I came to post just because of this picture.
Happy being hungry , anyone who reads this. =DD

Idk , I think I still liked you , all along.

2008-06-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1ST JUNE TO EVERYBODY!

even though I know theres no special occasion , I just felt like saying that. HAHAHAHA. =D

I'm feeling high now , dont know why! =DDD

feel like spreading the love and joy everywhere! =D

My mom brought me and my brothers out shopping today! and everywhere there was sales. Super tempted to buy everything , but I'm BROKE now. Anyway , Mummy bought me stuff , and Im HAPPPPPPPPPPY now. (:

My brothers were being really nice too , and it added on to my happiness. Thank you God that today was a happy day! =D

This week shall be intensive mugging and studying week. Really mustmustmust buck up alr , and complete all my homework also. Yay yay yay , I know I can do it with God's strength! =DD

Okay , I think I shall stop here , BYEBYEBYEBYE! =DDDD

Idk if I still like you , I just feel so confused whenever i talk to you , see you and think of you. Am i supposed to be happy or sad? Idk , Idk , Idk.

Just one last chance.

2008-05-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

Finally , its Friday , which means I have 2 weeks of NO SCHOOL. =D

but i still have a mountain pile of homework left to finish , so my holiday cant really be considered a holiday at all.

I was watching the Sichuan Earthquake Charity Show on youtube , and I left really really sad when I saw what the people over there were going through. In Singapore , earthquakes and other natural disasters dont happen , yet we are still not contented. I have everything I need , but I still complain like theres no tomorrow. And I realised that compared to other people who are homeless , and fighting to survive , I just cant thank God enough for giving me a safe place to live in. From now on , I shall learn to be contented with what I have , and not ask for so much anymore. =D

Today was the last episode of the 9oclock show. I forgot the name , but I think it is Bian Zou Qu or something. I like the general plot of the story , and its really unique , something I never saw before on TV or in storybooks. And I find the message behind the story really impactful too. How I never fail to treasure stuff until they are gone. And how much I will regret it after that. Another learning point , treasure everyone and everything around me , starting from now on. =D

On a last note , I promise to study hard and buck up on my studies , and make full use of this June holidays. I will not play as much as I normally do , and I will devote my time to studies. Most importantly , I WILL PASS AMATHS.

You're impossible to find.

2008-05-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

I should be doing Geog corrections instead of blogging here. But I am really tired of doing geog. Did it the whole day , and I really dunno how to do alot of questions. She's probably going to kick me out of class or smth tomorrow. But I dont really care. And theres 2 hours of geography tmr. Really dreading it lah. ):

Anyway , I was supposed to blog about something , but I forgot. I feel terrible now , because of alot of things. And I really hate to add on to other's problems. Ever since young , I've had many bad experiences , but up till now , I cant seem to stop being a problem to other people. And everytime that happens , I feel really horrible and bad. I dont know how to solve the problem. Whats more , Im listening to an emo song now. And makes me feel even worse , but its nice and i cant stop listening. Dont ask me why.

Kk , let off 10% of my frustration , shall go TRY to complete the geog corrections , which i highly doubt is possible to do by tonight. Bye. ): (: ): (:

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,
Over again
Dont make me change my mind.

Sing a love song , just for you. (:

2008-05-27T18:53:00.002+08:00

NO.MORE.CHINESE.=D

for this whole year at least.

I can say that Chinese O levels was quite easy compared to Midyears and Prelims. I just hope i wasnt too careless and made too many mistakes , cos i really want that A1 =D

anyway , its over , shall not brood over it anymore! =DDDDDDD

The school should seriously give us time off to study by ourselves , and have a longer break. I know its our crucial year this year , but extra lessons and coming back to school during the holidays make me more tired and grumpy , and as a result I'll have no more motivation to study anymore at the end of school time. ):

Yesterday was Jolene's graduation from SOLEAD(?)! and we went to attend her graduation ceremony. she looked so pretty k! CONGRATULATIONS JOLENE FOR GRADUATING! =DDD Shine for the Lord always k , and faithful-nest loves you! <33333

I did something productive today! I studied , okay more of like did afew maths questions from TYS for tuition homework. Teaecher said do as much as i want/can. And since my target is to finish the Emaths TYS by August , I might as well start now so I can complete it earlier!

And whenever I remember that I have not started on geography corrections at all , I just feel sad all over again. Someone's making me hate geography alot , and I just have no motivation to start on the corrections. But I'll do them , for MY sake and not just cause someone asked us to do it. =.= I have not mentioned any names here , so dont assume the person im talking about is you. (:

Kk , I shall go do more Emaths. (((((:

Loving you , or not?

2008-05-24T19:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
i am finally back , with a brand new keyboard.
my keyboard has been spoilt for the past 4 days , and CLICKING the online keyboard was irritating. how i love typing so much more than clicking! =DDDD

anyway , i got back my MYE results yesterday. Mummy went to see Mdm Chan , but i didnt go , cos i was sick yesterday. So i didnt get to hear what Mdm Chan actually said to my mother , but i think my parents are disappointed with me all the same. Ohwell , at least i improved slightly since last year , I'll just have to put in ALOT more effort for prelims and olevels! ):
Chinese O levels are in two days , and i have been doing chinese nonstop for the past few days. I cant believe myself , but I have to do it. ): after the next 2 days , i will be CHINESE FREE! =DDDD so i guess its worth it. (:

and my parents went for the hillsongs concert , and i am stuck at home cos i havent really fully recovered yet. ):
my mum told me the songs are very upbeat and her heart is beating fast. LOL. okay , i have nothing more to say i think. =D shall go do more chinese. BYE! (:

I LOVE MY KEYBOARD! <3333

Thank You Lord , You've been the best to me. =D

2008-05-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

Now I know , to forget something/someone is really really hard. It takes so much effort , but I'm determined to forget! Yay yay yay , I'm high now.

I thank God for helping me improve on my Emaths! =D From 50+ last year to a 71 this MYE. I know I haven't met my expectations yet , but there'll be other chances. And I really thank God for this not-bad mark. =DD

Tomorrow , we're getting back amaths , and combined sciences. I dont really have confidence that I'll do well for any of the papers. I just hope I pass these 3 subjects , because I studied hard for them. =/

Okay , anyway , haha , Desiree is high now , she shall not let any sad thing get in her way.

Shoo , all you bad things , I'm trying to be optimistic now. (:

Save a life , they need us. ):

2008-05-13T14:42:00.002+08:00

Today , I realised I could have not gone to school , because we practically did NOTHING there. =.= I cant believe how inefficient the school is , but its no surprise to me. Shall not brood over it anymore.

Anyway , I have been visiting this website , and I think it confirms how much I wna be an animal volunteer next time to help the animals around. Firstly , I cant imagine how people could be so irresponsible to throw their pets away once they get sick of them , just like trash. Animals have a life too , and even though they may be small , cant talk , cant express their feelings like we do , they have a life and they certainly do not deserve to be unfairly treated. Everytime I read cases of animals being abadoned in the middle of nowhere , and because of one small irresponsible act of the owners , they get attacked and eventually die. Sure , they may be cute when they are young , and thus people buy them on impulse just because theyre cute and adorable. When they grow old , people no longer find them cute and just dump them as and when they want. This hurts me so much everytime i read about it. Animals have a life , and what's more , they didnt do anything to offend us in any way. They rely on us to survive , and all they really want is a proper , good and loving home. But , sometimes we cant even give them that.

HRSS.net , the website I've been going to. Go to the thread where there are news of rabbits being abandoned in the cruel-est ways ever. and when I saw the pictures and read the stories , my heart seriously ached like mad.
This bunny , Miracle , was the first bunny i think i ever literally cried for even though I;ve never seen her in person. And everytime I go to that page , I'll start crying and crying , so if you dont really wna see it , dont go to the link. http://www.hrss.net/forum/viewtopic.php?t=2235 <- this link.

Anyway , even though nearly no one reads this blog anymore , I just wna prove my point that animals DO have a life , and I seriously object to them being treated like rubbish. If you cant commit to a pet in the first place , then dont have one. For now , I shall try to help these pets in any way I can. My mom told me to give it up , that I cant do much for them , but if everyone thinks the same way as me , then I'm sure pets wouldn't have to suffer for nothing at all.

I sound like a campaigning person , but if you think I'm not making sense here , the red 'X' is in the top right hand corner of your screen. (:
And I hope this post wasn't too long winded or offended anyone. (:

Forgetting the iloveyous , forever.

2008-05-12T14:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was GDOP , and it was aweesomeee.

Before GDOP , I met Eunice. And the time was really well spent , i realised i havent really been talking to her much , but yesterday , i told her everything that was troubling me , and i feel so carefree now. I LOVE EUNICE , thanks for listening to me. =D

GDOP made me realise many stuffs. That God is always beside me , and He's the only one that loves me so much , even though I forget Him and disappoint Him all the time , Hes still there , and He still loves me all the same. I've not been a good christian all this while , and I really think I've drifted away from God alot. Yesterday , it was just talking to Him about eveyrthing that was bothering me , and He spoke to me. He said ' Dont worry about anything , for I am with you. ' and He told me to forget all my worries and troubles , because in the first place they weren't troubles to begin with.

So now I've decided to give up something really precious to me. And no , its not what you think it is. I guess even though it'll take a long time , I'll be able to do it , because God can do anything but fail. And I'm sure He'll pull me through this time.
All the stuffs i came to know about , it caused me to fall deeper and deeper , until i kept telling myself I could never get out of it no matter how hard I tried. Im giving up not because I think theres no way out , Im giving up because I want to put my mind on other more important stuffs , but most importantly because I know God will see me through this and I should give Him the unconditional love that I've been keeping from Him all this while.
So no matter how many tears I have to cry or how much heartaches I have to experience during this period of time , I'll do it all the same , because I know forgetting will be the best thing that I can do for myself. (:

This is not meant to be an emo post , haha , in fact it has cleared all I'm worrying about previously. And I'm so amazed at how God can do wonders (:

I will soar with You , above the storms.

2008-05-10T20:35:00.002+08:00

I know You've washed me white ,
Turned my darkness into light.

MYES ARE OVER! (:
even though theres prelims and Olevels coming up , i shall take this time to rest alittle before attempting to work hard again. =D
anyway , these few days have been fine.

Yesterday , VCDsquared went blading at pasir ris park! vanessa didnt blade , but she was a great help to me ! and i think 90% credit goes to her that i only fell once the whole time. =D thanks vanessa!
Today there was service and cell group. and I am ever amazed at how splendid God is. and I've made up my mind to stop worrying about everything that's going on around me.

Worship made me think about this whole week . How I had my own fair share of good times and bad times. How happy i felt when God showed me how the people around me loved me so much , when I attempted to study this once for MYEs , when I felt Him there with me all the while.
Also , there were bad things. How confused i felt over some stuff , the nightmares and bad dreams that I had when I was napping and sleeping. It was so terrible I cried. But I straightened out my thinking on many many good and bad stuff.

Cell was about hearing God speaking to you. And I realised all this while, I've just been praying , and not listening to what God has to respond to me. I always felt that God didnt understand me , that He left me alone to struggle with my own problems. But now I know that Hes always been trying to respond , just that I didnt give Him a chance to. Just now , we sang East to West during cell group worship. And I was reminded how God died for us , to set us free. And I couldn't thank Him enough. God's love is just too magnificent to comprehend , and I'm glad to receive His love.

Anyway , from now on , im just gna cast all my worries upon Jesus , and have faith that He'll see me through everything. No more worrying unecessarily, no more complaining , no more feeling inferior to others , nothing more. Just God's love for me , its more than enough. Thank You Lord. (:

And , did i mention , I am high now! =D =D =D

I simply live for You. (:

2008-05-05T18:59:00.002+08:00

I shall blog before I go and study chemistry.

My brain is half-stoned now because i did amaths for 6HOURS. I have never even studied for that long in my life , but i managed to do it today. Thank you God (:

I keep thinking about what I am going to do after MYEs. i know i should study still because Olevels aren't over until another 6 months or so , but a short period of time of relaxation is always good for the body too right? =P
Somehow saying this , i keep thinking of the times when i used to stay up late doing nonsense , like chatting with random people online and reading nonsense storybooks. Like how i was so free to sleep at 4am eaech night , and wake up LATEEEE in the afternoon after that. that feeling is so shiok lahhhh.
and i really cant wait until i can really slack and stone and be happy doing the things i LIKE instead of things that i NEED to do .
okay i know i am spewing rubbish , because my brain is seriously too tired to comprehend sentences. i shall go and read chemistry now cos the only thing i know about it is moles.
BYE! (:

doiloveyouordoiloveyou?=S

Just sing a love song , because i love you. (:

2008-05-04T20:05:00.002+08:00

YO!
i survived a week of exams! and i seriously think i have never studied or read my books so thoroughly before. normally , i wouldn't even have bothered to even look at my books or notes . but this time round , im like able to sit for 4 hours ( my maximum for now =P ) straight and actually STUDY. and i know this is not by my own strength , but by God's. and He's the reason why im studying so hard in the first place. so that I can glorify Him with my results , but most importantly , i know that I've tried my best no matter what.

so the subjects left are half of geography , history , combined sciences and AMATHS. i have been practising so much amaths that i neglected my emaths and geography. i badly badly badly want to do well for amaths , but for now i shall aim for a pass first. (:

My chinese is doomed. i actually wrote out of point for compo. The topic was about hostels , but guess what. i mistook it for camping =.= . i feel so silly , and i think i really need to improve on my chinese. because o level chinese papers are like 3 weeks away (!!!!) and my average grade is still C. ahhhhh.

Okay , i still have one more chapter of history to cover , and its the cold war. all i can think of now is stalin , hitler , TOV , japan and GreatDepression. i hope i do well for history!

I have realised that God has placed so many people that love me into my life. Like how i sometimes forget His kindness and take for granted the people around me. Wanxin buddy actually gave up her whole of tomorrow to revise amaths with me! and i cant thank her enough. THANKS BUDDDDDDDDDY! <33333.>
and God has given me my parents , whom i get angry with ocassionally , but in the end , i know they love me alot. how my mother nags at me every single day , but when im studying and being stressed up , she'll buy me nice food (B&J!) and try to crack jokes to make me happy. and how my dad behaves like a kid just to make me laugh. i love them both so much. MUMMYANDDADDY ILU! <333>
THANKYOUGOD for eevrything that You have blessed and provided me with. i really really appreciate it , and this has motivated me to work even harder.

I shall go finish cold war now , and i cant wait for MYES to end. =DDDD
ohhh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA AND NATASHA <333.

love paints me a rainbow when im down. (:

2008-04-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

I . AM . GOING . CRAZY.
seriously seriously crazy.
i can barely do differentiation questions.
to make things worse , tmr is the test alr.
and i desperately need to pass , at least this once. ):

i cant stand being able to memorize everything and understand the question , but when its new numbers or phrased in a different way , my brain just goes blank again. i hate this frustrating feeling. and i came on specially to rant.

*anyway , someone ruined my day AGAIN. i was alright with her alr , but after today , she just proves that shes the worst person i could ever meet. not like i had a choice to meet her or smth. i cant wait to leave sch ,, then i wont be able to see her face. thinking her skin is so THIN , its actually like 100 times thicker than mine. =.= whatever to her , i dont need a teacher like her. and yea , im super happy that i pissed her off. =.= *

* this paragraph was sarcastic , since her skin is so thin , how could she possibly be all that horrid? whateverrr.

anyway , i shall go off now. =D
BYE! (:

a love thats unexplainable.

2008-04-20T16:23:00.004+08:00

Italy. (:
I shall work hard and earn money , then in the future i'll be able to move to a beautiful place and have a carefree life with an enjoyable job. (:

Mid Years are a week away. I hope it will pass by quickly. And i shall be motivated by ben&jerrys. (:
actually i wna blog about smth , but i forgot what i wanted to blog abt. so i think this is quite a useless post. i shall be hardworking and study abit now. Oh , did i mention im studying italian now! its such a superly beautiful language la. (:
Arrivederla. (:

WORSHIPCENTRALCONFERENCE08.

2008-04-13T18:59:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was WorshipCentralConference08. and it was really a great great great great experience for me. and I don't regret one bit about going for it. How God spoke to me , and how he showed me what it means to love and obey Him. and when we were singing the songs , all I could think of was how Jesus died on the cross for me , just to pay for my sins. How helpless i am , but how much He loved me , no matter how imperfect i am , and how often i make Him angry when I do things to upset Him.

During worship , I just poured everything out to Him. how i had forgotten that all this while i was struggling with so many problems at one time , He was there for me. When he wanted to be the first in my life , I pushed Him away. When He wanted me to confide in Him , i turned to other people.And all I could say to Him was ' I'm sorry. ' I realised all this while , no matter how terrible I feel , or how huge the problem i'm facing is , there will always be a Father who loves me so much that He died for me , just so I could live. and I could never be thankful enough.

So what did I learn yesterday? To summarise it all , what I learnt really applied to me alot. Often , I narrow worship down to just singing , jumping and the songs we sing in church. I always forget worship is a whole lot more than just the songs we sing to praise Jesus. That's only a portion of the meaning of worship. God showed me that worship is to have an intimate encounter with Him. When we come before Him as we are , when we admit our weaknesses to Him , when we acknowledge that He is Lord above all , and when we are responding to Him.
Usually , when I worship God , there will be alot of stuff on my mind. And then I can't concentrate properly on speaking to Him. So I realised one important thing is to clear whatever is on your mind when you are worshipping God , and focus only on Him.
Lastly , worship is not a 'once a week' thing. This is one thing I always forget. During the course of the week , we should not neglect God , but instead prepare ourselves spiritually for worship. Worship isn't short term , its a long journey with Jesus. =D

Okay , that's pretty much the gist of what I have learnt yesterday. and I realised how much it impacted me. Thank you dear Lord Jesus . =DDDD

you just dont know how much you mean to me. ):

2008-04-06T18:57:00.002+08:00

MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL.
even though i love money , i HATE it now. to the core.
my parents are starting their quarreling thingy all over again.
these few days , they quarrel over EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING. and i'm super super angry with them. like every small thing.
i dont know why this is happening. and the more they quarrel , the more i dont wna talk to them. i feel so far away from them now. i cant communicate with them properly. and i just dont want to talk to them or face them anymore.
RAWR. all i can do now is depend on God . and i trust that He will give me the strength to face them. the more i see them i get more irritated. and i feel terrible.
whatever they quarrel about , it all boils down to MONEY. why must it be the cause of everything?
anyway i have no more mood to blog. i just blogged because i felt too angry. and all i feel like doing now is going out and never ever comingback to this house again. sorry for the moodiness. ):

I LOVE YOU ALOTALOTALOTALOT!!!!!!

2008-04-02T19:58:00.003+08:00

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY.
MUIMUI DID NOT COME FOR LESSONS.

i was so happy i could have jumped down the stairs. HAHAHAHA. but being the weirdo she is , she still assigned us work . LOTS OF WORK , but heck , as long as i dont see i am A HAPPY PERSON. =D
somemore we aren't seeing her tomorrow and on friday. AHHHHHHHH i cannot believe that we are so fortunate. and i wont have to see her face the whole of this week. hurray hurray. actually , i didnt see her the whole of this week because i was absent from school yesterday. ONE WHOLE WEEK OF NO MUIMUI. i am delighted. =D

anyway , I REALLY WANT TO GO SHOPPING. i know i sound like a bimbo , but haha. hinthint to anyone who reads this ^^
hahahaha i have nothing to blog about. just felt like blogging because im extremely happy today.
byebye. (:

Time to forget , forget you completely.

2008-03-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

Yay , i havent blogged in such a long time.
Anyway , this shall be a short short post. just cause i felt i shouldn't abandon my blog.

Got back progress cards this week. As usual , got a big huge lecture/scolding from my mother. I admit its my fault , i didnt work hard enough , i should buck up and stop daydreaming. But what she said made me so angry and sad , it reminded me of what muimui said to me when she gave me that stupid big scolding last week. But thank God i managed to control , and i didnt shout any awful stuff at her like i would in the past. =D

And i just found out one of my hamster is limping. its hind leg is hurting , and it hurts me so much to see it dragging itself around and around the cage. Although i think no one comes to this blog , i do hope you who are reading this post now , please please PLEASE pray for my hamster? I dont think i can take another heartbreak so soon. and yes , my hamsters are VERY dear to me.

Okay , last point. i think i have drifted away from God. everyday i do the same thing , then when i go to church , i start feeling guilty because i have sinned so much. right here , i just wna say I am really sorry Jesus , that i have sinned against you time and again , i've made you disappointed with me , and yet i havent truly repented. I just pray that You'll help me to get back on track again with You. help me to find joy in You just like i did in the past. and most importantly , help me to have absolute faith in You. (:

Okay , maybe i'll be abandoning this blog for a while , until the next time i have an urge to post. (:

THEWORSTTEACHEREVER

2008-03-11T23:11:00.001+08:00

today was a SUCKY day. fullstop.

NOW I KNOW WHAT A HORRIBLE TEACHER YOU ARE,
get ready to face the consequences.
all i have to say to you is,
TOO BAD.

YOU JUST DONT KNOW.

2008-03-09T20:30:00.002+08:00

Currently , i have a very huge ulcer at the corner of my lips. its visible , and it REALLY HURTS. ):
and its such a torture because i cannot eat , sleep , talk or smile properly. and its really really obvious. i pary that the swelling will go down soon and i'll look more normal again. (:

Anyway , i'm having my occasional moodswings now. and i dont know why one minute i feel happy , the next i feel super depressed. is this normal ? i dont think it is. anyway , many stuffs are going through my mind now. and i am having a headache. so i shall stop blogging for now. even though i think that this entry makes no sense.

You dont know how it is to feel left out. How terrible i feel because others are happy and i am not. I sound selfish , but this is the way i am. and im not blaming anyone , but sometimes i just feel so outcasted. And everything seems to be going wrong now. Fantastic.

=DDDDD

2008-03-07T21:29:00.003+08:00

I am using daddy's computer to blog now. haha. and i am watching tv halfway. whatever , so random. lols.
this week has been a sad week.

Firstly , ms loh is leaving. i think out of all the many teachers and all in the school , shes been the nicest and kindest to us. shes the only one that actually cares about our wellbeing and shows the most concern. on that day when she gave her farewell speech , she actually thanked PM . i mean , how many people actually care about my CCA? they all treat us like rubbish , like their slaves and most never even bother to thank us even though we help them like 90% of the time. that's why im really really sad shes leaving. i think shes the only one that pays attention and cares about us anyway.

Secondly , miss aileen tan is leaving! shes been the best form teacher ever out of the four years at SAC. and shes leaving for one term , but shes not gna be our form teacher anymore for the next 2 terms. how sad is that?! when she told us she was leaving , and how much she would miss us and never forget us , the tears just came. i think this is the first time i've cried over a teacher.
today , instead of having lessons , she showed us pictures that we took some time ago with her camera. we actually went around the sch camwhoring with her camera. and THERE IS A SUPER UNGLAM PICTURE OF ME. i hope no one blackmails me with that picture , or i'm gna faint okay. its really really unglam! ):
anyway , most of the pictures were quite okay , only that unglam picture made me super embarassed. haha. anyway , i'm gna miss ms tan cos shes been a really really great form teacher.

anyway , next week is march holidays , but i still have to go back to sch! and i have LOADS of homework to complete. so i may not blog for a long time. BYE! =D

you matter so much to me.

2008-03-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO! (:
hahahaha i am really lazy to blog. and i'm supposed to be doing chinese vigorously but i shalltake a break cos everything is chinese to me now. all the best to everyone taking olevel chinese MYEs tmr! (:

on friday we had foundress day mass , and after that had to go for some career fair at suntec. =.= so siannnn cos all the universities were like what , OVERSEAS?! but we got lots of free stuff , so i shall not complain. after the thing , went shopping with dewaine constance and vanessa (: bought lots of food and walked arnd ALOT. and and , the scariest thing happened on the MRT back. we spotted this plastic bag which was SUPER suspicious looking under the seat in the MRt. and when i asked the man whether it belonged to him , he IGNORED ME. so we were extremely sscared and alighted. went to tell the counter person abt it.

AND I THINK I AM SUPER PARANOID THESE DAYS COS OF MAS SELAMAT. i freak out at every single little thing , i refuse to go anywhere alone , im scared to walk home alone , and im scared of taking the MRT! i pray that he'll get caught soon , and that hes not planning any bomb stuff or whatever to harm singapore and the rest of the world.
i should have faith , because God is with us (:

anyway , Jamie Kidd came to church yesterday to share his testimony with us. and i got really touched at the end , cos i know i've been super not obedient these few weeks , and i know i've disappointed Jesus alot. and despite all He's done for me , i still go on with my bad ways. so i wna say i'm sorry dear Jesus , i promise i'll try to be better. and i'll try my very best to turn away from wrong stuff , and surrender all i am to You. (:

alright , blog when i feel like it again. BYE! =D

iloveyoulikemad.doyouhaveanyclue?=DDDDDDD

after all the drama , i realised i love you and only only you. =D

2008-02-26T20:44:00.003+08:00

Cola darling , even though you're not with us anymore , you'll be forever remembered by every single one of us here on earth. i miss you loads , but i'm happy to know that you're in Heaven with Jesus , and i know for sure you're happier there than you were on earth. =D

i know i havent been blogging for long , too much stuff has been going on in my life. both good and bad stuff. last week was camp corri , and so we missed half a week of actual lessons , which was replaced by lectures , lectures and more lectures at TP. but , it was much more fun than actual lessons , so i shall not complain. anyway , for a detailed account of what we did , go visit dewaine's blog , 52trashbins.lj (:
time passes so fast its alr end of february. and soon it'll be march , april blahblah then O LEVELS. why must time pass so fast. T_T
we did registration for olevel subjs today. and i have to work extra hard because i dont wna waste all that money put into the exam papers. from today until sudnay , i shall read more chinese books because chinese MYE is next monday. how quick is that?! and seeing how bad my chinese is , i really have to buck up loads more.

anyway , my brain is so super messed up now. actually i dno what im actually worrying abt. its like lots of things jumbled into one big hugeeeeeeeee problem. and now , i really really really need God's strength to be with me now and help me pass this weird/bad/whatever time now. and i know God has a plan for me. so please desiree stop stop stop worrying for once. =/ i'll leave things to happen on its own , according to God's will. and i think i'll stop here for now la. hees. BYEEEEE =D
iloveyoualot.afterallthedramathathasbeenhappening,ireaslisedhowmuchithinkaboutyouaday.beforetheincident,i didntreallybothermuch,butiknowyouvebeennicetomethepastfewdays.andithinkihaventgottenoveryouyet.thisincident
hastriggeredmorefeelingsiguess.andtheonlythingtodonowiswaitandsee.ihopeyoudoreturnthefeelings,butihighlydoubt
that.anyway, ijustwantyoutoknowthatireallyreallyloveyou.

i love you darling , pleaseeee get well soon. ):

2008-02-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

Dear Jesus ,

i pray that you will heal Cola of whatever he's suffering from.
even the vet at the clinic couldn't tell what was wrong with him.
and we have to bring him to the hospital to be X-rayed to find out what's wrong with him.
since he's old , it could be many sicknesses.
and i am really really ultra super worried right now.
i owrry about him every single second. and i keep imagining the worst stuffs happening.
i know i should not be worrying , cause everything is in Your hands , O Lord.
what i badly want to do now is to stop worrying , to trust and have faith that You'll heal my darling Cola of whatever he's suffering now.
i pray that when i look at him , he wont look so miserable and sad anymore. i pray that when i look at him , i won't feel my heart breaking all over again. i know he will get well , and that would be well worth all the tears i have cried these past few days.
Please Lord , may Your healing spirit be upon him , and may he get well soon.
Thank you ,

In Jesus most precious name ,
Amen.

you guys just dont care.

2008-02-15T21:04:00.003+08:00

you know what.
i just found out that NO ONE seems to care about cola other than me in this house.
they're all just assuming that he's gna die so its not worth it spending money to bring him to see a vet?
i mean cmon , hes a living thing. how would you guys feel if everyone ignores you when you're sick in the future? if you dont like it , what makes you think an animal likes it?
hes in great pain now , but i bet i'm the only one who's feeling all stressed , emo and heartbroken for him.

the truth is , NONE OF YOU BOTHER. and i shan't care anymore.
heck it , since its such a burden.
money's more important , so just save it.
its enough that i care for him , yea right. i didnt imagine you guys would be THAT uncaring.
well , relax , you guys dont have to fork out a SINGLE CENT. i'll pay for everything. i'm sure you all are happy now.

please dont go. pleasee.

2008-02-15T17:07:00.002+08:00

DESIREE IS SAD. for the first time in many days.
why , you may ask?

MY DOG IS SICK.
when i was on the way home just now , i got a call from my auntie , calling me to come home quick. she said my dog was super sick , and he looked like he was going to die. i was suepr shocked , and i rusheddddd home. (yes i took cab)
i practically ran all the way to the door la. then i saw my darlingg cola lying on his bed. and never in my life had i seen him look so weak and poor. he was shivering , and he just lay there.
and i promise , my heart just shattered into like 128741862478164186 pieces.
he looks abit better now , but i really dont know whats going to happen. all i can do now is pray for him and trust that God will heal him. i dont want him to go just yet , i love him too much.

so everyone who is reading my blog ( if there is anyone ) , please please pleaseeeee stop for a moment and pray for Cola ? i'll really really reallllly appreciate it alot. thankyouuuu. =D

and i dont really have the mood to continue this post anymore. my tears are gna like pour out any moment so i guess i'll just stop here.

the one i love. yesbaby i loveyou but i know it'll neve r come true.

2008-02-14T20:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO EVERYONE! (:
even though today was spoilt at the end by some people , it was still a very very very happy day for me.
firstly , i got alot of sweets and chocolates and nicenice sweet things , which made me super happy and high. so now im in a GOOD MOOD (:
whenever i look at the stuff , i just wna scream with happiness. heees. (:
so THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to everyone who gave me stuff! (:

anyway , i saw something in the daily bread that made me even happier. i realise , that however bad the day has been , God will be at your side to cheer you up at the end of the day. a few days ago , i read this particular page , and on it , there was the meaning of love. not just ordinary love , but God's love for us. and i instantly felt happy. shall type it here. =D

For God so loVed the world ,
That He gAve
His onLy
BegottEn
SoN
That whoever
Believes In Him
Should Not perish,
But have Everlasting life.

John 3:16. spot the words?
the Bible is the greatest love note of all. and how could i ever ask for anything more? thank you dear God (:
iloveyouyouyouyandonlyyou.(:ijustwishyouknew.

its all a fairytale , im not in reality.

2008-02-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

MY TWO BESTIES , DEWAINE AND CONSTANCE. (:

vanessa . send me your picture so i can edit leh.=D

OKAY! =D havent posted in afew days.

and i really have nothing to talk about. but constance wants me to blog , so here i am. =D

today , our japanese sister school came to visit us. and they are really cute and all! in all pictures , they have one standard pose only. =D and they sang a song for us! super nice and sweet. and their principal and VP are soooo cute. (:

i followed vanessa and natasha to eastpoint today! and i managed to come home all by myself. i was super afraid i'd get lost or something la. but yay , i reached home in the end.

and we got back chinese standard test today. guess what , i passed ON THE DOT. 15/30. greatt la. but at least i passed CHINESE. =D so thank God.

this week is full of tests. tomorrow there is amaths standard test. thursday history test and friday SS test. to top it off , i have school until 6.30 on valentines day. not like it makes a difference in the first place. =/

but yay! i love FT ISLAND all over again. =D

somehowihavethefeelingthatiminlovewithyoualloveragain.provemewrongplease.=/

my feelings are all mixed up. just forget it.

2008-02-10T18:42:00.000+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY. =D
for the first time ever , i practised amaths BY MYSELF. usually , i'll wait for homework to come , then i'll start doing. but this time was different. even though i only did AFEW questions. but at least i did! its a start i guess. =D

from now on , i will start learning how not to be jealous of anyone and anything. yesterday's sermon was great. =D and i love how each sermon teaches me to be better. especially since i tend to sin alot without knowing it. so , from now on i will try not to complain too much and not to be jealous of other people. YAY =D

TOMORROW is back to school again. ): and i thank God for the longlonglonglonggggg break from wednesday till today. even though i want moreee holidays , i have to face it right? i just hope i dont sleep and stone in class like i always used to do. everytime i wna concentrate , i end up doing something else or getting distracted. so , i hopeeeee this week will be different? =D
and , tmr is such a longgggg day. but i'm happy theres no more amaths tutorial after sch on mondays anymore. cos i'll just stone in class and not listen. maybe study sessions will be better for me? =D
ohh , and thanks danielle chong for blogging about me. so nice uh you. =D but i blogged about you first. hees. i have nothing else to blog alr. my brain is stoning.

anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH LEONG. (:

i cannot love you , no way.

2008-02-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

charissa and me. =D

HELLOHELLOHELLO! =D

CNY day 2 was spent at my grandma's house. (mother's side)

at first things were super stoned.

in the morning , charissa and clement came over.

played wolfteam , and i still suck at it. alot. but im improving! =D

anyway , then reached there , tessa is superrrr cute and energetic.

stoned at the tv , ate lunch. the abalone super nice. =D

had a camwhoring session. everytime im with charissa , i'll take super alot of photos.

and today , i was happy cause all my photos turned out not so bad. got alot of self-taken pics , so i wont put here. =P

anyway , i think the pic up there is super super super nice. okay , the nicest out of all. my cousin super pretty can. =D

anyway , gna end this post soon , cos danielle's going gambling. and i want her to read this post and TAG first before she goes off. she made me post about her , but since shes posting about me back , i dont mind.

okay. i dno what nice things to say.

anyway , she admitted she loves me. but she hasnt said it in person yet. *HUGEHINTTTT*

i hope she gets this hint , cos shes super blind , and didnt get it until , hopefully now. =D

danielle , be happy i posted about you , i rarely post about people okay. you should know what to do now hor. =P

OKAY BYE! =D

falling deeeeeeeeep.

2008-02-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY BROTHER ALOT (:
this picture was taken at my ahma's house.
got lots of other pictures as well , but i'll post them up somewhere else and some other time. =D
heeees.
i am happy happy today. =D

i gave up on you , now im falling for someone else? =S

2008-02-06T16:28:00.001+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE! =D

i am very happy today , because CNY show turned out quite well , despite yesterday's rehearsal not going that well. but its over , so i shall put the past behind me. =D anyway , even though today was tiring , i guess it went okay. no screwups or anything.
what upsets me is that the school NEVER EVER appreciates us for anything. okay except one or two teachers who occasionally praise us , other than that , nothing at all. im quite used to it , but i feel that its just respect to thank us after we have done so much for you. but since everyone thinks we are unimportant anyway , nevermind =D we dont think we are not important at all. imagine if we ever go on strike , the whole school will be screwed.

AFTER SCHOOL , i went rollerblading with constance. with how little experience i had after not blading for about a year? i fell TWICE. which is =DDDD for me. because previously , i would have at least fallen down 10 times after 10 minutes of blading. so yay. =D we bladed for about 2 hours i think. and i hope i have burned off some fats. and i wna go blading again soon! =D today was fun fun fun fun! and sadly , i owe constance an icecream because i didnt fall down 10 times or more.

i think the appreciate-what-you-have-and-not-complain method i'm practicing now has helped me to become more cheerful , more happy and generally not so grouchy and emo. and i'm like being my random self again , which i'm glad about. =D i hope it stays this way.
anyway , im confused now. over stuffffff. and the feeling's just burning. =D or D= i dont know.
i'll wait and see what happens next , its most likely i can't control my own feelings at all. =/

YOU SHALL BE OUT OF MY LIFE! (:

2008-02-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

I AM FEELING RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY! (((((((((:
okay , i also dont know why the sudden burst of happiness.
maybe its cos i have regained my long lost favourite hobby of SLEEPING. (:
i find myself sleeping so much more often now , and dont call me pig , cos i sleep because im sleep deprived. and i cannot stand being sleep-deprived. if i dont have much sleep , i'll become moody the whole day and be grumpy , and people will start to hate me. =D so YAYYYYYYY to sleeping randomly again! =D

okay i typed all the nonsense above cos i was elated that i just had a nice nice long undisturbed nap. usually , when i sleep , i keep getting randomly woke up by random people for nothing. i shall not talk about sleeping anymore (:

constance asked me to blog more , but i have nothing to blog about. no more complaints since what i learnt from sermon yesterday had a big impact on me. why should i complain so much when i have a house , good food , family , friends , school and so many luxuries , like computer , phone , good food[again] , hamsters , dog , blahblah and the list goes on cos theres just too many to be named. despite having these things , i still find stuff to complain about. and looking back at it , it really seems stupid. i sound like a spoilt brat . and thats not gna help me in any way. so from now on , i MUST try to appreciate what i have , which other less fortunate people do not have , and STOP complaining. (:

and , i feel the problems in my life just flew away. (: so carefreeeeeeeee now. i hope this feeling is permanent , and since there's bound to be problems in one way or another , i'll just face it happily. yay yay yay! =D
i have nothing more to say , so BYE! (:

i lovelovelovelovelove you. MUCHHHOS.

2008-01-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

i thought about everything last night.
and sometimes i get pissed with myself for forgetting that God is always there for me. no matter what i do , how bad i perform , Hes always there for me.
and i feel really guilty because i take Him for granted so many times.
and i'm really sorry God , that i've not been a good person and all. i know how much i might have disappointed you. and so , from now on i'm going to have faith in Him.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

There , God has been reminding me that He has a plan for me , that i should not worry , that i should just give my best.
and thats what i'm going to do. im gna do my best for God , and have faith. (:

you know what , just GET LOST.

2008-01-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

today was such an irritating day.
first , it was thursday , which meant our timetable was long and tiring. who ever dreamt of putting history , geog , and social studies into the timetable all in a straight row man! that means 2.5 hours of HUMANITIES. and naturally , my small sized brain couldnt absorb much. T_T
to top it off , there was o level results today , which made me panic like siao even though i wasnt the one getting the results. and to finish everything off , CCA almost made me cry.

okay so some people might think im stupid , since whatever happened didnt concern me. but one thing i hate is to see people disagree and quarrel about stuff that will soon blow up into something big when it could be solved normally without having to burst all that blood vessels. look , listening to all of the shouting , screaming and everything just made me have a headache. how i wish i could have just run out , slam the door and go bury myself somewhere.
seriously , it might not seem like a big deal to most people , but it IS a big deal to me. asking me to comment or thrash things out about something that is practically nothing when both sides could be more understanding , IS a big deal to me. i felt terrible then , and all i wanted to do was just burst into tears on the spot. how much it took me not to cry in front of the whole CCA and embarass myself.
you know , our CCA was NEVER into such a big and tangly mess before. why it became like that , was because people couldnt agree on things. and because some people's attitudes just SUCK. fullstop. when you think youre the only one in the whole entire wide world that is correct , thats when you bring trouble to yourself and others. screaming and shouting and thinking youre so clever and that others are plain stupid will NOT get you out of matters. in fact , its making things worse. why cant you spare a thought for others?is a simple sorry so hard to say? if you made a mistake , learn from that mistake , not blame it on everybody except yourself. all you care about is yourself. and whatever was said , i dont think it got through to your thick skull and brain. if you dont like our CCA , just get lost. no one is forcing you to stay , no one will feel any loss. since all you do is sit there and do your own stuff. if you happen to read this , which is really unlikely , please dont feel offended or whatever. because do you think i will care? whatever i have typed is TRUE , whether you like it or not. come get people to beat me up , slap me or anything , youre welcome to do so.

its people like you who spoil everyone's day. and thanks veryveryvery much for spoiling my day. i love you so much for making me feel like crying. i havent felt like that in a LONG time.

now , i'll try my best to throw you out of my life. for good.

2008-01-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

DEWAINE! =D
see?
im dedicating this post specially to you. i really really really thank God that i have such a great friend like you.
even though you said you didnt help me at all , and you were making things worse , its really really the opposite.
what you said made me think so much of what i was worrying about.
and after that i found myself really stupid for worrying about something that was actually nothing. and its not worth it at all.
so , thanks thanks thanks very very much dewaine dear , i love youuuuuuuuuuuu alotttt. =D

im like randomly starting to worry about stupid stuff again. i dont know why these stupid random thoughts just slam into my brain and make me worry the whole day and night until i cant sleep , eat , concentrate in class and everything. its so frustrating until i feel like exploding.
so , from now on , im just gonna push all this rubbish out of my brain and out of my life.
what my friends told me were right. why should i worry when you probably dont even know or care whats going on? i've been stupid i know , but as dewaine says , being a fool once over is better than being a fool your entire life. so , bye to all you stupid problems. =D

and once again , THANKS SO MUCH DEWAINE DEARRRR =D
i'll forget you , and everything you once were to me. i'll not care so much , cos it doesnt matter anymore. =DDDD

i realise i still love you , i cant deny. ):

2008-01-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

the title for this post holds a very important meaning , but you ppl [ who are reading this ] cant see it. =P
i havent blogged in such a long time.
and many stuff happened! and i really cannot believe now is 2008 alr. which also means OLEVEL YEARRRRRR. im irritated by the way everyone , which is really EVERYONEEEEEE seems to be talking about olevels like its the new trend or smth. teachers , parents , friends , everyoneeeee! makes me super stressed and cant concentrate properly and worry unnecessarily. ):

i really miss 2007. i have to say , its been one of the most enjoyable years i had. how God has been super good to me , showing and teaching me new stuff , and how He showed me that no matter how far i stray , He'll always be there waiting with open arms for me. and i really really really really thank Him for that. (:

anyway , teachers have been nicer and more hilarious this year. especially mr quek and his lame stuff. now i know i'm typing but i'm not actually touching the keyboard. if the atoms on my fingers and the keyboard touch , there'll be nuclear explosion. HAHAHA. and how he told us abt this guy working at the cemetary raped this DEADDD girl until she came back to life. ' her eyes just popped open ' and our whole class laughed like siaoooo. this equation [V= RI] stands for very retarded idiot according to him. its some physics formula that i have no idea about. HAHAHA. okay. i dunno why i'm blogging but i just felt like blogging. okay. it most probably will be a long time before i blog again. BYEBYE! =D
OHHHH , the school is super last minute and INEFFICIENT by the way. PM aren't your slaves or servants , we aren't robots , PLEASE learn to tell us things in advance when you need help. thankyouverymuchhhh.
love is such a confusing thing.

this christmas , all i want is understanding. (:

2007-12-24T10:46:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! (:
i've thought alot about everythings that has happened arnd me , and i decided not to care so much about them anymore!
what for be emo for nothing right.
and , christmas is TOMORROW. which means that today is christmas eve! =DD
i really really hope i can pass this christmas season with happiness!
so i shall not let any sadness or bad stuff get in my way. yay yay yay =D
anyway , i have nothing to blog right now , so i shall leave with this christmas song that i heard from somewhere. its really cute and nice.
and i think i wont be posting for a long time , cos im lazy to log in to blogger. hehe.
so , MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE and may GOD BLESS YOU! =DD
to someone , i wish you knew. but its okay. =DDDDDDDDDD

im sorry. really really sorry for everything.

2007-12-16T18:38:00.000+08:00

desiree is CONFUSED. very very very confused.

she doesnt know what to do anymore.

she hopes things will be better and everything will clear up soon.

please pray for her if you see this.

and she might not be posting here for a long time.

goodbyeeeeee for dunno how long.

i feel happy happy happpppy =D

2007-12-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

its been raining the whole day!
so im feeling super cold now. but the weather's nice. i like this kind of weather , where it makes you feel like doing nothing but sleeping. =D
haha i know i havent blogged for a while , but thats cos i couldnt find the inspiration to blog.
so i shall make this post a short one.
the last few days , i stayed at home watching taiwanese dramas with my grandmother. and i actually prefer doing that to using the computer.
cos not only can i break my annoying habit of using the computer the whole day , i can bond more with my grandma.
and i really really enjoy watching stuff with her. =D and how we talk about random stuff during the show.
yay yay i love love love my grandma lots =DDDD and and , tomorrow , shes bringing me a korean dvd , so we can watch it together! YAY =D

you know , i've been praying to God about lots of stuff. both good stuff and bad stuff. and i really thank God for seeing me through everything. =D and how He's made everything muchmuch better. i dont feel emo anymore! and its like , one good thing just happens after the next. and it shows that i've got to have faith that God will bring me through all my troubles , and in the end , its Him who's always with me.
and i've just heard a shocking news. uncle tian tee just passed away. and i just cannot believe it.
its like , i just saw him on sunday. and our whole family went for lunch with him. and its barely been 3 days. and now , hes gone. he's given me so much advice , and hes really been nice to me. like how he insisted on finding a song for me on my brithday , and how hard he searched for it although it wasnt being sold anywhere. i just pray that God will be with him , and i wont be sad. hes in heaven right now with God , and i just want to say that even though i'll miss him alot , hes in a better place with God now. uncle tian tee , you'll always be dearly remembered by everybody =D

BACK. =D

2007-11-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

=D
i'm back from phucket. and it was OKAY. and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be.
i realised i like thailand a lot. its so different from singapore.
and even though its sort of less advanced than singapore , its really nicer! like everywhere you go , theres dogs and chickens running around everywhere. and all the shops are so close to each other. haha i bet you got my point alr. =D
so there was this really cute guy in our hotel . hes one of the staff. and my mum went crazy over him. everytime he came out , she would stare like mad. and kept forcing me to take pics with him. and she even found out his name , mr HOT. hot okay! HAHA. sad thing was he couldnt speak english. but he was really smiley and all. =DDD
and we shopped alot! there were pasar malams everywhere. and we bought lots of stuff. =DD
okay. haha. i shall stop here. anyway , i wouldnt mind going back to thailand again. =D

the one i reallllly love , has always been you.

2007-11-18T16:35:00.000+08:00

i just woke up! i slept for almost 8 hours , since 7am in the morning.
lowest key event at church was kind of fun. hees.
i went to sleep at 3+ though , and woke up at 5+ to find eunice and olivia missing. ):
so i was walking arnd finding rubez and anna , and finally found them at the other side of the chapel. and the hall was so cold , i like couldnt walk properly. and i had a super ultra painful headache. so in the end , me and bestfriend transferred room. and slept till 7+.
bus-ed home and then slept somemore. i feel such a PIGGGGGG okay!

alright. im suppoed to go to my grandmother's house for dinner tonight.
and i was really looking forward to it , cos i miss my grandma lots.
and guess what.
my father had to be random , and suddenly told me that i cant go.
and the reason? because its RAINING. =.=
-cancelled-
its okay i guess , i should learn to forgive and forget. =D thanks bestfriend for consoling me. i love love love you lots . <333

yes i love you , but i just cant say the same for you. =/

2007-11-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

im trying to blog more often! cos i absolutely have nothing to do. =/

and these few days im trying not to be online too much! my computer's old , so it needs more rest? thats what i keep telling myself to refrain from using it too much. =D

today i went out with my grandmother. she brought me to this shopping centre in ang mo kio , and she bought me clothes! shorts and shirts. =D im so so so happy. actually , i dont think i've been this happy for a long time. not that she bought me stuff , but because i got to spend almost the entire day with her.

okay i am going to be quite emo here , so you can stop reading if you want.

just now , i was being SUPER emo. and i just couldnt stop crying. maybe ppl would ask ' why! ' actually , i dont really know the reason too. everytime i see my grandmother , the tears just come. okay most of the time. and you know , my heart will start aching and all that emo nonsense will start happening. i really hate feeling sad , cos i know no one would want me to feel that way. especially my mama. okay thats what i call my grandma. =D yepps. and i just WISH there was more time in the world that i could spend with her. nono , shes not suffering from anything and her health is perfectly fine , but that doesnt stop me from getting worried. i worry about unneccesary stuff ALOT , and yup , i really dont want to lose my grandmother. everytime im alone , i'll start imagining things , and it goes from bad to worse. i just hate to think of these stuff , but it makes me think , why dont i treasure the people around me more instead of worrying and worrying endlessly? the problem is , i cant. no matter how hard i try , i really cant. first , i dont know how to start spending time with them , and second , i forget all about it. and this ends up in me being miserable over nothing. =/ whoever's reading this , i just hope that you'll pray for me to treasure my loved ones even more , because i hate hate hate feeling this way already. and yes , my grandmother is veryvery important to me , and shes one of the people that i love most in my life. i dont want anything to happen to her , and i really really want to spend as much time as i can with her. seeing her happy is my only wish now , and yes i know she wont read this , but
MAMA 我爱你 很多很多 !
yay.

OKAY! emoness is gone! just needed to get stuff off my mind or else i'll start worrying for nothing again. yesyes , i really really love my grandmother and everyone of you reading this! pardon my emoness time and again , i just cant think of anything else to blog about. im going out with shermeen tomorrow , and i hope it will be VERY FUN! yes shermeen dear , I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH TOOO! =D i have many other things to say , but i think i'll just stop here. =D

i cant deny it ; i really love you,

2007-11-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

OKAY , i havent been blogging for a long time. haha. no inspiration to blog la. many stuffs have happened. and time has passed FAST!
its holidays now! and i sort of dont know what to do. molly outing tomorrow , and yep , im looking forward to it. =D my mind is like swirling around , i cant remember what i wanted to blog about.
oh , today we moved to the CHAPEL in the new building! =D and even though i've gone there quite a few times , it never fails to make me all excited again , just as if its the first time im stepping into it. and i really really really thank God for blessing us with the new building , and even though there were problems , He saw us through it all. and now , we have a brand new super nice building! yayyyy. we have a new cell room to ourselves. and cell was FUN today. =D
constance is on the plane to australia by now i guess. and yes i know la constance , you'll surely see this one day. I WILL MISS YOU ALOT. and i know you'll miss me too. remember to buy rainbow coloured candycanes for me okayyyy. (: and you owe me a present! i dont care. heeeees.
okay , have nothing more to blog. hees. BYE PPL! =D
and,i really dont know. really really. =D

and i guess it was all just meant to be. =/

2007-11-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

1 MORE DAY OF SCHOOOL before my sort of real holidays start. =DD
however , theres 4 PERIODS OF AMATHS TOMORROW. 4 periods! such a good way to end the week man. its just a good thing the 4 periods are not all joined together. i'll just probably sleep through the lesson luh.
anyway , this week has been sort of good? haha. somehow , i feel that everyone is already in holiday mood. like no one really has the mood to come to school and concentrate during lessons. i keep daydreaming and feeling sleepy. heeeees.
i think im losing my memory too. i simply cant remember what homework there is. and i forget lots of other stuff too!
and i did not go for geography extra classes today. they managed to finish everything by today , so supposedly , theres NO MORE GEOGRAPHY EXTRA LESSON TOMORROW. =DDDD wooo.
anyway , i really have nothing to update about. oh yaa , did i mention i am broke? im terribly and officially broke. no more moneyyyyy. and why is that? because i spend everything on FOOD. i cant believe how much im eating nowadays. especially junk food like chocolate and KFC.
hehe. seriously have to cut down. =D
OH . and yes constance , lets go to DXO again.
and after that we go suntec find SOMEONE uh. =DD

someone is DAMN unreasonable.

2007-10-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

okay , i know i havent blogged for quite a LONG time.
it seems that everytime i blog , i'll surely have something to complain about.
today was fun! in the morning , had youth service. then we went to eat lunch at 85. after that , hideout cafe for fellowship/cell outing. super super super fun! played and screamed alot. went for dinner with anna after that.
and when i got home , trouble brewed. ):
i didnt bring my phone out today. and my father started screaming at me when i got home. he said i was irresponsible , and that he wont let me go out anymore. please la , he didnt even find out what really happened. i DID tell someone where i was going and i wouldnt be eating dinner at home. so how can you just assume that i didnt inform anyone? anyway , youre treating me like a kid. saying i cant go out , when i already confirmed everything? lets see whos the UNREASONABLE one here man.

okay. i shant talk about it anymore. i'll just pray about it , cos theres nothing i can do anyway. and i know i must submit to authority , but i just cant seem to do it. it just gets more and more difficult each time. everytime i try and talk to them nicely , what do i get in response? scoldings , naggings , everything. even if its for my own good , that i understand , but too much ISNT a good thing. now , all i'll do is have faith in God . He'll help me. =DD thanks God. (:

alright , im sorry for ranting and ranting. its like i have nothing to do except complain. i promise i'll try not to complain so much anymore. =D

saranghamnida. =D

2007-10-21T19:32:00.000+08:00

leehonggi. =D

FT ISLAND IS THE BEST BEST BEST BEST. theyre so talented and their songs rock. =D i cant stop listening to their songs.

anyway , theres 3 more weeks of school left! i want the 3 weeks to pass by QUICKLY! =DDD then it'll be holidays. yayy.
ohoh , im advertising for my mother's new blogshop. i helped set up the blog , so please support and visit it. the address is makeasimplewish.blogspot.com . GO VISIT OKAY! =D
haha. i like have nothing to blog.

okay. shall blog again when i have something to blog. =DD

BYE! <333

everything is getiing from bad to worse.

2007-10-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

alright , got back results today.
what can i say? not satisfied with my marks at all. i failed 2 SUBJECTS. amaths , and geography.
and thats going to earn me a BIG BIG BIGGGGG scolding , i know. my father is in the living room now , i just hope he doesnt find out today. furthermore , hes sick? sick = bad mood = more SCOLDINGS.
amaths , failed. which was expected. i deproved from MYE. ):
geography is the one that im most unhappy with. failed by HALF A MARK. she failed my whole class except for 2 people. thanks alot , muimui. you made my life SOOO MUCH BETTER.
combined sciences , A2. its quite okay , but i made LOTS of careless mistakes. combined humans , nothing to say. i deproved like mad. chinese , can say just passed? but im satisfied that i can at least pass chinese.
english , did quite well , but i deproved from MYE. deproved by 5 positions , so 7th in class now.
today was just depressing. i spent alot of money cos i ate ALOT. and i spent $5 on chocolates to eat later. see what i can do when im sad and angry?

its over , so i wont complain any further. the marks i got are the marks that i truly deserve. time to focus on the future? HAHA. no.. what i have to do now is stay happy. and think of how to break the horrible news to my parents. =D
nevertheless , thank you God for being with me when i got back all my papers. =D praying made everything much better. =DDD

you =D

2007-10-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

exams are over! =D

okay. my mother is screaming at my brother now. seriously screaming. whats her problem man. talking about ending her life and all. walaooooooo eh.theres nothing i can do but pray for her now. haiiiiii.
okay unhappy things aside!
EXAMS ARE OVER! although i missed the last paper because i was terribly sick , its still over! now , exam results up next. but i shall enjoy the time i have now! =DD i shouldnt worry cos its over , and the results i get is what i deserve. so , i must stay happy. =D

i went to town yesterday! with susanna , jolynn and rubez. we ate our crystal jade and korean BBQ. =DD after such a long time. and there was this fashion show outside taka. and the models are HOT. so yesterday was a very happy day. =D and tomorrows a school holiday! im going out with vanessa to buy presents. ahh nothing to blog alr.

my mum is still screaming like mad. okay. i just pray that she will be more lenient. by screaming at him , it wont help matters. all you're doing is ruining his self - confidence. i know she wont see this , but i hope she'll stop it. seriously. shouting at him wont make him listen to you , it will just make him hate you more. and thinking of suicide is just wrong. im so disappointed you know. even if things are in a terible state , you shouldnt even consider suicide. i think you have forgotten , but , God is always with you. mummy , if you see this , remember that God is there for you. and stop screaming at darius la. hes just a boy , not a supergenius.

it will never be the same.

2007-10-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

my 200th post! and 2 more papers till the end of EOYS.
now come to think of it , im not that excited that the EOYS are going to be over. because then there will be normal lessons again. =/
today , stupid physics paper. or maybe im the stupid one. for the second section , we were supposed to choose 2 out of 3 questions. and guess what i did. yesyes , i did ALL the 3 questions. and i forgot that we were only supposed to do 2 until constance told me 30 mintues after the paper. then i went ALAJFHFGKFHFGHFJSDHDKDKF. i just hope they wont minus marks for not reading instructions. i was too stressed memorizing all the formulas okay! ):
went to airport again today after the physics paper. i wish i could fly. then i could fly far far away. =D

I WAS WRONG ABOUT YOU.

2007-10-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

first week of exams have passed! i havent been studying really hard , but i think all the papers were QUITE okay. i just hope that i might at least pass. =D
okay there are 4 papers left! pure geography ( killer ) physics and chemistry paper 2 and MCQS. then i can go PLAY!
i pray that God will be with me and help me concentrate and study for the final 4 papers , then i'll be able to enjoy after that. =D

i dont understand your big problem man. i didnt even do anything to you. i guess i was wrong about you right? yes , all i said was just rubbish. anyway , dont ever count on me to give you advice again , cos all i do is add sarcasm to your life.and , iif you dare to write about me , i dare you to at least have the courage to put down MY NAME. thankyouverymuch.

i never loved you more than this.

2007-10-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

AMATHS + HISTORY EXAMS TOMORROW.
what am i going to do. i hate these two subjects the most. i cant even do one question from the worksheet that mr poh gave us. and im seriously going to fail amaths again. okay , shall not swell on it. God is with me , He'll see me through my papers! time to cheer up and not feel so depressed. =D
one more week to the end of exams! =DDDDDDDD i keep looking far ahead. like i keep thinking of o levels and all. HAHA. abit too fast laaaa. 7 more papers to go!
and emaths and SS is finally over. 1 humanities subject is OVER. 2 more to go , history and geography. i think im gonna write until my hand breaks. writing nonstop for 90 minutes is not fun at all.
I LOVE MY EMATHS TUITION TEACHER. she stays next door , and she agreed to teach me yesterday. she came back from her tuition classes at like 10+ , and she taught me until 11pm. I LOVE MISS WONG I LOVE MISS WONG. HAHAHAHA. she better feel honoured. =D

okay. i shall go do MORE amaths. =D

now im going to forget you . seriously .

2007-10-01T15:40:00.001+08:00

FIRST DAY OF EOY EXAM. im the hall okay. super not used to it. cos the hall is so big and all. english paper 1 and 2 , quite okay. for compo i wrote some drama story as usual. all i hope for now i that i dont fail my english. or i'll be DOOMED. but God is with me , so i will have FAITH. i will not fail. =DD

today i finished my papers quite early. like 30 minutes before the time was up. so i just sat there thinking. thinking about alot of things. when im free , random thoughts just keep pouring into my head. i dunno whats wrong. but yea. i realised i have alot of problems actually. i really want all the troubles to fly away. but i know thats not going to happen? i must face the problems and solve them. and i know that , God will be with me every step of the way. so i must stop worrying and STAY HAPPY. genuinely happy. =D

HAHA i dont know what im writing. exam stress exam stress. i'll most probably not blog as often? wish me all the best trying to finish studying everything. =D

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING. =D

2007-09-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

LAST DAY OF THE WEEK! its friday already! and next week is already exam. i cannot believe how time flies. =D very soon , it will be after exams , then EOY holidays! and next year , prelims and O LEVELS. ohnooo , im looking too far ahead. must get past this years EOY exams first.
i am HAPPPPY with myself this week. all the tests i got back , i got surprisingly good results. i cannot believe myself. but Thank God for all my good results , and also for my not so good results.
for the first time ever , i got 9/10 for amaths. i know it doesnt count cos the paper was easy , but I FELT SO ACCOMPLISHED. i wish i could score as good for amaths EOY exam. so i shall work very hard for the next 2 weeks! for emaths , got back trigo tests. quite high marks for both papers , but all the careless mistakes made me lose alot of marks! social studies SBQ , 6/7. YAY. my SS is usually very lousy and all , so i was super happy. todays chemistry test , 10/14! not so good , but still , YAY! =D okay. i really really really really thank God for all the good marks. cos i guess it helps raise my confidence for the exams? surprisingly , i dont feel scared or anything. i feel PREPARED. but in actual fact , im not 100% prepared yet. so i shall go study NOW.

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR THE END OF YEAR EXAMS/O LEVELS/ANYTHING TYPE OF EXAMS! =DD

GOD IS WITH ME =D

2007-09-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

i have sorted all my thoughts out already.
i know i must honour my parents , and its the right thing to do.
so however angry they might make me , i have made up my mind to try my very best not to get angry with them , but honour them , because that is what God wants. plus , i hate being so emo and depressed. so from now on , i shall just cheer up and depend on God. =D

school has been very draggy. everyday , go school , study , go home , study somemore , then sleep. its the same every single day. but its only one more week to the END OF YEAR EXAM. and , i still dont seem to be studying. i just cannot concentrate. especialy when eams are nearing. RAWR. i know i should get off the computer and mug and cram everything into my brain , but i just cant do it.
OH. during CME today , ms tan let us watch some inspirational video thing. so as usual , i was stoning. suddenly , a familiar song started playing , 'i can only imagine' . i started to wake up , and found it familiar. and suddenly it hit me. God was just speaking to me throughout the song. and i suddenly felt this sense of peace and joy and happiness! its like , He was telling me not to worry about anything , and count on Him , for He will see me through. so after that , i was very very happy and high throughout the whole day. thank you God for being there for me. i know i have ignored you and continued being sad and emo and all. but now , i'll listen to you , cos i know that You'll always be there for me! =D

nothing i do will ever make you happy.

2007-09-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

i wonder what is wrong with me. as each day passes , more and more problems there are. first , family problems are getting worser and worser. i never fail to quarrel with my parents every single day. i just dont know whats wrong. a family is supposed to be supportive and encourage one another. but does my family do that? no. all they do is insult me and make me feel like an idiot. fine , i admit , i've not been serious in my work. but at least , i have made an effort to start. its really difficult you know , and all you guys do is insist that i study hard and do very well. im not a robot who can give you what you want. im a human too , and no one is perfect except God. you always said , as long as you tried your best , its okay. but when the results come , all you talk about is what a big embarassment i am. that other people can do so much better than me. that im such a failure because i cant pass everything. i get it. i know im not the smartest person on earth , but im studying not for you. its for myself and its for God. soo , next time , before you say any hurting stuff right to my face , please please please remember that i am already trying my very best. and if youre not happy with me , then im really sorry that i failed to meet your expectations.

i finished ranting. i know its been one week since my birthday has passed , but i have just one birthday wish. i wish that my family will consist of hapiness , laughter , joy , peace , trust and love. thats all i really and truly want.

i know you'll never love me.

2007-09-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

ITS MIDWEEK ALREADY! =DDD

i think im really unproductive at school. all i do is stone or sleep in class. i really have no mood to study anymore! but i guess i have no choice la. haha. i wish these two weeks will pass faster , so that it'll be exams soon. it sounds crazy , but i really think that im not learning anything in class. so whats the point right?

yesterday , i went to study with wanxin at the airport! it was FUN! managed to concentrate , and i finished all my physics homework and one chapter in the textbook too. after that , decided to walk around the airport. we went to the place to see the aeroplanes take off. it was so beautiful i wanted to go overseas there and then. HAHA. then we randomly walked around and around. something embarassing happened at macdonalds! i dropped my ice cream on the floor , and it made this super loud PIAK sound. good thing no one was around , or i would have died of embarassment okay.

after that , waited for wanxin's parents to come , and they fetched me home. haha. nothing is going through my brain now as usual , so i guess i'll stop here. BYE =D

its just not there. =D

2007-09-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

today was a great day! no tuition cos teacher was busy. (:
so i went to church to meet my parents for lunch. we went to telok kurau i think , to eat. the food there is really really nice! so after that , i thought we were going home , but my father's friend wanted to bring us somewhere to eat chicken wings. in the end , we got lost at the seletar camp place there. u-turned about 6 times. and im really really surprised at the houses there. its like literally another country. it didnt even really seem like singapore anymore. it was like a countryside , with those bungalows and all. and since i never ever been there before , all i could do was admire the beauty around me. sounds cliche i know , but it was really really beautiful and amazing. the best part was that , we got to this airbase , seletar airport there i think. there were private jets there. like alot of them. and it was just very awesome. in the end , we found the chicken wing place , but it was closed. but at least we got to see all the beautiful scenery! so the trip was worthwhile after all. =D
later in the evening , i went to the reservoir to jog! it has been sometime since the last time i've went there , and its still as peaceful as ever. half walked , half jogged and half ran , and we completed one round of the reservoir. =D walked a longlong way that i never knew existed back home. and it began to rain. im starting to love rain alot. i really really thank God for the wonderful day that He gave me today. i really enjoyed it. =DD
i just want to say that there is no way i can express how much I LOVE FAITHFUL-NEST! they had a mini celebration for me yesterday. and it really brightened my day , especially since the day started off not quite well. thank you guys! =DDD
I LOVE MY FAITHFUL-NEST DARLINGS ALOTALOTALOTALOT! =DDDD

FRIDAY IS FINALLY HERE. =D

2007-09-13T17:11:00.001+08:00

yes! i managed to pass through thursday! surprisingly , today was quite okay. GY , stoned because it wasnt our groups' turn to present yet. geography , ms lim only called me once today. and i knew how to answer her waterfall question. =DDDD so i was in quite a good mood. chinese , sat alone cos vanessa didnt come. i felt like such a loner. but i talked to annalisa and jaclyn , who were behind me. =D and the time passed quite fast.
physics , managed to understand everything that was taught. YAY. its rare that i even manage to concentrate in physics class. emaths was as usual , super boring. the rate that she goes at is so SLOWWW , i can just fall asleep in class already la. SS , even more boring. just stoned for 2 whole periods.
ITS FRIDAY TOMORROW ITS FRIDAY TOMORROW! im so so so happy. first week of term 4 is almost overrr! but it also means one more week nearer to the exams. =DD got to start studying already.

everything is MY FAULT. dont worry , just blame me for everything. anyway , whatever i say now will be meaningless right. i bet youre happy now.

love does not see any flaws. (:

2007-09-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

so far , this week has been quite productive! monday , was super slack. mr poh did not come for lessons , and there was homeroom and assembly. CCA , was quite frustrating. i really really cannot understand some people la. just give others a chance you know. dont always follow what you want , and pleaseee consider the feelings of others.
tuesday , fell sick and had sore throat. became worse in school. so i sounded very weird. i managed to concentrate in most lessons , and geog was as usual. ms lim called me 2 times. first , to ask me to stop writing. second , to ask me to explain some stuff to the class. arghhhh.
today was an okay day. in the morning , there was pure bio standard test , and since i dropped bio already , went to the next door class to do self study. i was telling constance how my voice really sounded like some chicken today , and by the end of the period , she had a bit of sore throat too. and claimed that i passed it to her! haha. for emaths , mrs lim didnt come , we had to do this worksheet. i managed to do most of the questions , except for some which i dont understand. i found out i dont really know bearings. ):
CCA was in computer lab 3. quite fun la. laoshi called me SHORT. i know im short la , but it was super super embarassing! everyone , like the whole CCA was laughing at me okay. he made me write at the lower part of the whiteboard. then when i called him lame after that for only singing one random line of some random song , he went ' you're gonna be the first one i write testimonials for okay' cos he wants to write that i called him lame. super lame hor? HAHA i dont know what im talking.

OHHH. just now there were tremors. the house was swaying. actually SWAYING. super scary. my whole family went downstairs , and found out that many other residents also went downstairs. waited a while for the tremors to stop. and i prayed nonstop. God really really works in our lives. (: after praying , the security guard announced that it was safe to go up already. thank you thank you Lord =D

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING ):

2007-09-08T10:36:00.000+08:00

im so sad that the holidays are ending soon. ):
alot happened this week. and i keep falling sick recently. ): i didnt go to school for tutorial yesterday because i was sick with fever and sore throat. and now my throat is still hurting BADLY. i dont know whats wrong with it laaa.
i feel superrrr unproductive. even though i studied more than i would on normal school days. i havent finished my holiday homework. and i bet there is homework that i didnt even know existed. haha (:
OHHHHH , GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS. MY BROTHER CAME BACK FROM SHANGHAI ALREADY. im so happy happy happpppppy! when he wasnt around , the house was so empty and quiet and all. but now hes back , its like a complete change. HAHA. and he was exceptionally nice to me last night. he bought me a toy pig that can stick to the wall. =DDD heeeheeeee. ahhhh i lovelovelove my brother laaaa. =D and i went to make purple specs. i cannot wait to wear them. theyre so cooool la. (: haha. i dont know what to blog about anymore. too happy + sad + excited for i dunno what reason.
did i mention already , that i LOVEEEEE the holidays lots. =D

RADICAL 2007! =D

2007-09-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

YAYYY! holidays have finally come. i love to sleep late and wake up late. yayyy. =D
oh , and im HIGH! XD after last night's radical , which was GREAT! =D i think at the beginning , everyone wasnt that high yet. but when they went in front of the stage , everyone became super ultra high! we were doing duty , so didnt get to jump. but we enjoyed ourselves also! last part was super funny. when it was supposed to be the end already , samchin kept playing another song. it happened like 4 times! we were behind laughing like siao. super super funny. i cant wait for radical again! next year. and i want normal service every week to be like that. =DD thank God for radical and the lively lively atmosphere. =DDD

and i have been feeling very motivated suddenly. i just feel like studying and studying and studying. i dunno whats wrong with me. maybe its because the exams are only a month away. i keep thinking of what i will do after the exams. probably go out alot and PLAY! yesyes , i cant wait for the exams to be OVER. yup. im studying physics and geography with susanna tonight! wish me all the best! =D